Will I Really?


Hey guys welcome back. So today I got thinking and I just asked myself, “Will I really?”

Will I really become the healthy person I want to be? Will I really read the books I want to? Will I really enter 8th grade as a new girl, confident in her own skin?

And truth be told, I don’t know. I don’t know if I will actually find the motivation to go on a jog tomorrow or read the books I promised myself I would.

But you know what, I’m going to try. I have to. Whether or not I find the motivation to do it is beyond me, but I still have to make an attempt to find it.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Dog Difficulties


It’s been a few days and I am kind of an emotional wreck.. My dog bit someone today and im just scared. Scared that he is gonna be taken away. Scared he will bite someone else. Scared that the dog I love will be seen as a monster.. I can’t loose my best friend.. I just can’t. I am going to take about a day to process things and then get back to it. Im sorry I’m just a bit unstable at the moment. I have a story once I get back though, one about a boy who hit on me at the pool. 


Letting Go


Hey guys welcome back. So today I wanted to talk about letting go. This summer, as you’ve heard, I am trying to “re-invent” myself. And this includes getting rid of some friends.

MG and I have hit a rough patch and I think that this friendship isn’t healthy. I obviously cant get rid of her completely because I’m still going to be on a bus with her for five more years. But I definitely think that I should distance myself.

I also want to get rid of a couple “friends”. Like the girl in my gym class who is extremely violent and clingy. And the one in my English class who is extremely distracting. As well as the girl who is constantly hungry for attention.

Basically, when I thought this over, I pictured my wedding. My bridesmaids are already picked out because I plan on staying friends with the girls I’m super close with now. But when I was picturing what will most likely be the biggest day of my life, I couldn’t see any of these people actually being there.

When I thought more about why they might not be there, I realized that it’s because these friendships aren’t good for me. I mean sure, there was I time when I though MG might be a part of my wedding, but now not so much.

As bad as I feel letting go of these people, I know it will be better for all of us in the long run.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Loving Myself


Hey guys welcome back. So, as the majority of you probably do, I have my body image issues. I can honestly say I don’t love what I see when I look in the mirror. This seems to be a common trend among teenagers today but I’m not going to go on a rant about “society creating unrealistic beauty standards” because that is all we talk about. We all get so mad about “society” but I think the best way that we can combat these beauty standards, is by loving ourselves for who we are.

I know it most certainly will not happen over night but, along with some encouragement from Liss, I am trying to see myself the way others do. I am trying not to pick out my flaws every time I catch the slightest glimpse of myself. I’m trying to let go of the past and kind of re-invent myself.

My goals for this summer include things like gaining flexibility, spending less time alone in my room, becoming healthier, and most importantly learning to accept my imperfections.

Yesterday for example I was able to leave my house without feeling the need to wrap myself in a sweater to cover my body. I felt confident in my outfit and was proud of myself for it.

Of course I’m a teenage girl so I will have my ups and downs but at the end of the day, I want to be able to say, “Yes, I have acne, I’m not the skinniest person, my teeth aren’t the best, but I love who I am.”

And I encourage you to try to achieve the same thing.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



A Professional Ballerina


Hey guys welcome back. So since I was quite little in the back of my mind I’ve always had a secret wish.

I’d honestly love to one day be a professional ballerina.

I know it’s practically every little girl’s dying wish but I have always loved ballet so much. I love being so graceful and light on my feet. Sometimes I even catch myself doing small steps at the most random times. My mother has told me repeatedly that if I really wanted to pursue this dream, she is all for it.

Truth be told though, I’m not sure I’ve had enough training at this point in my life. The majority of professional ballerinas have their career figured out very young. I currently go to a small studio in the center of town but as much as I love it, I know I wouldn’t be able to learn the skills needed to be professional.

But even so, the idea of going on a stage and becoming something, someone, else is really appealing.

I’ve never wanted to grow up so essentially playing dress-up everyday doesn’t sound so bad either.

Even though I know its highly unlikely at this point, I’ll do my research and learn as much as I can about the world of professional ballet. Maybe one day I will preform onstage with an amazing company.

This all came up because I finally got around to re-reading Taking Flight, a memoir by a professional ballerina. It has made me think more about my secret dream and whether or not I actually want to go for it.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I’m in a mutual relationship with my bed


Today is summer.. And so is tomorrow and the next day and after that. And I have literally no life outside of school I realized. None, nope, nada, nah, no, nopity nope nope. 0 life. So I am trying to find people to come with me to the pool but literally everyone and I mean EVERYONE is away. So I invited my bed. My one true love who I go home to every night and cuddle with. I’m way to into this gosh I have been wanting a haircut for a while so I am gonna go get one of those. And go to the pool. Then sleep.  What has my life come to? 


I Like My Room

Hey guys welcome back. So the title may seem a bit random and I know its completely out of context but hopefully it’ll make sense in just a bit.

I have been “deep cleaning” my room for the past couple days (mostly the reason my posts have been so infrequent). But today Liss came over and although my room is far from done, she was the first to see the progress.

But she kind of, unintentionally, made me feel a little bad. I know she meant well but honestly her words hurt a little. Maybe I’m being overly sensitive. Basically every time I mentioned that I might want to change a certain thing, she’d say “Let’s do it right now!”

I know she just wanted to play interior designer but it felt like my room wasn’t good enough. I felt like no one liked my room.

But now, after thinking things over, I like my room. And that’s what matters.

After all, this is a space for me to be me. A space I’ve created for myself. I’ve done so much in this room. This room is part of me, and I shouldn’t have to change it for someone else.

Well, that’s all I have to say for now. Thanks for reading and have a great rest or your day or night.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!