Hey guys welcome back. So if you remember, about 2 weeks ago I went to get a blood test. I never really mentioned what I was being tested for and that’s because I didn’t really know myself. My doctor got the results today and it turns out I have exactly what she thought I did.
This pretty much means that my body doesn’t respond normally to insulin, causing my blood sugar levels to be high. Thus causing me to gain weight. And it pretty much keeps me caught in a giant loop of trying desperately to lose weight and it being extremely hard. Eventually, if not treated properly, it can lead to diabetes.
I’m not even sure how to feel. I’m grateful to have answers, happy I don’t have anything worse, mad that my body doesn’t work normally, and then mad at myself for being mad when there are people with much bigger problems than me.
I did do the very thing my doctor told me not to and that is googling it. Oh well. This morning I wasn’t even positive about what it was because all the things the doctor told me got kind of jumbled. Now, I have a more clear understanding and if that’s bad, so be it.
I’m going to have to take medicine and the only thing she said I could do is exercise more. But I don’t know how much more to do. I already workout daily, I go to dance for 2 hours each week, just walking across my school could replace a 20 minute jog.
Right now I’m pretty lost. My goal is to lose weight, because I feel so uncomfortable even sitting at lunch or in class. But I am going to have to work twice as hard as any other person to achieve my goal.
In my dreams, by the 8th grade dance in June, I am skinny like all my friends. And I don’t look ridiculous in the picture our moms insist on taking before we leave. But I know that probably won’t happen. I might be close to it, but I really doubt that.
Sorry about my rant I just needed to get a lot off my chest. How are you doing?
See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!