Hey guys, welcome back. I’m not really sure what I want to post about yet if I’m honest. I would usually choose quality over quantity when it comes to blog posts but because these last couple weeks have been so messed up I want to do my best to get back into it.
Well, there is something I kind of want to talk about.
I’ve already been pretty open about the fact that I’m not the skinniest person. I’m not exactly at my “ideal weight” but I’m working on it.
However last night I was at a Girl Scout event and somebody said something that caught me completely off guard and oddly enough, it wasn’t any of the girls in my troop.
It was actually a mom. She dropped off her daughter and went to sit in a chair that was kind of on the other side of the room. And we were all chatting just setting up and everything and then she called me over. I kind of assumed she would ask me something about my mom cause they’re friends and my mom wasn’t there. But, she didn’t.
I walked over and she leaned forward and kind of half-whispered, “You look good! Have you lost weight?” To which I replied,” N-no I don’t think so…” “Huh. Well you look very nice and your hair down looks good too.”
I was absolutely stunned. The first thing I did was tell Lyss about it and she laughed. I’ll admit I thought it was kinda funny too. However it really made me think.
Recently I have started to wear my hair down more often and the first day I wore it to school down, it was one of the first things people mentioned when they saw me. And it did feel good to have people compliment me. But this was different
This was about my weight.
My mind started racing thinking about my body. I weighed myself today and I did lose about 5 pounds but that’s really not enough to notice much change. Was I presenting myself wrong? Had I been making myself look bigger than I actually am? Do people notice my weight?
That last question stuck in my head. I know I’m overweight, I don’t need anyone to tell me. I’ve been trying to do something about it. And if you asked me today if I thought people noticed my weight in fourth grade I would say for sure. But today I feel like I do an okay job of not looking too big.
I know this woman meant well but I can’t help but wonder if people do take notice of my weight now. I’m always being told that nobody else notices the flaws I see in myself, but what if they do?
See ya soon!!!