Hey guys, welcome back. I owe you a bit of an explanation. My anxiety is back. It’s worse.
You know my policy on quality over quantity but for right now I’m just going to post. Get my thoughts out. I don’t care if it’s not my best work. I’ve kept it bottled up and I need to write it somewhere.
Sunday night a panic attack slapped me in the face and all I could do was cry. Monday morning it hadn’t subsided and I sat in my room half sobbing half screaming even after my parents told me I could stay home.
On Tuesday I went to school late and spoke to my conselour. She got my work for me, gave it to me, and I sat in her office to do it because a classroom would’ve been too much. I was only there for two hours. Today it was the same except I worked in the library and I was there for three hours.
Tomorrow I go for four, maybe I’ll make it to class. By Friday I’m hoping to make it through the day.
My parents have been kind of frustrated. Telling me to distract myself and stop crying and compose myself. I try but it’s hard and I’m just not at that point yet.
I’m pretty numb at the moment. I can’t really process what’s going on. People in my classes have started to notice that I’m at lunch but not in class and I don’t know how to answer them when they ask about it. One girl was so persistent that I just told her
I’ll be okay. Eventually. I only have a few more days of school until break and that’s all I need right now. A nice break.
See ya soon!!!