Hey guys, welcome back. Just a quick update post because I haven’t blogged in a week. I’m sorry but I’m going to explain why.
I’m falling apart. I just can’t take it anymore. I want all of this to stop. I want to go back to living a normal life.
On Monday, my Great Aunt Gloria passed away. I was absolutely devastated. First my Aunt Vi, now her. It’s all just too much. I went to her wake yesterday and was alright until we were leaving. We went up to her casket and my mom started saying goodbye and I lost it. I kept wanting her to sit up. To wake up. I hated seeing her laying there. In her casket was a bouquet of roses with two dog treats attached and the words “Love Lucy” written on the ribbon tied around it. It was from her dog. That broke my heart.
She passed so suddenly. I didn’t know but she fell a couple weeks ago and was in the hospital. She was very little and the hospital gave her too many drugs. Her blood pressure dropped and they couldn’t save her.
The school is now creating an official “modified education” plan for me. It’s only for as long as I’ll need it but I can’t keep teaching myself so I’m going to have tutors to help me and a definite plan each day so I’ll always know what’s happening. I’ll still be able to keep my enriched classes and I can go back to any classes I think I can handle.
There is also the possibility of a therapy dog at school. The school social worker has a registered emotional support dog who she can bring into the building as long as there are students who need her.
Im just so done with this. I want it to go away as quick as it came but that realistically won’t happen. It’s now been months since this started and I just want to go through a regular school day again.
See ya soon!!!