Rediscovering Old Passions

4/27/17

Hey guys, welcome back. In the last two weeks or so, I’ve been starting to do more things. As I feel better, I find that I am able to work harder and as a result I have more free time.

And because of all this glorious free time, I have rediscovered some old passions of mine.

One of them being gardening. Don’t ask me why but for some reason I absolutely love gardening. I love planting the flowers and taking care of them and weeding and raking out the flower beds at the start of spring. I don’t mind the sweat that will inevitable pour down my face no matter how cool it is. I don’t care that my arms and back and thighs ache for days after.

I used to help my mother in the garden all the time. Back when my homework took 15 minutes to do, I used to go out on the spring time with my mom and plant flowers.  And those are some of my favorite memories.

The day before Easter I went outside with my mom to help her decorate the house. And then when we finished and it was still light out, we decided to do some work in the garden. And I loved it. It felt so nice to be out there again, away from a screen, alone with my thoughts, enjoying the serenity that comes with living in a small town.

Another thing I have recently rediscovered is my love of art. Now it isn’t exactly something I’ve ever forgotten but art in general has kind of taken a back seat for the last couple of months. The other night, I just picked up a notebook and started to doodle. At first, I’m not going to lie, my drawings sucked. They looked terrible.

But then I had the idea to look up some simple drawings on google and try to recreate those. It was around this point that I would normally get discouraged. I would see how amazing those drawings were and how bad mine were and then I expected to give up. But I didn’t. I tried one and sent a picture to one of my friends asking for his opinion. Now this friend is someone I go to when I need a laugh. I was still feeling a bit insecure about my art and discouraged. So I figured he could help me in that aspect.

Instead however, he gave me actual good advice on how I could improve my drawing. I took his advice and it actually helped my little drawing come to life. I tried another and another. And I was proud of both. The next day I drew another one and I’m really proud of them. I will try to insert pictures but I’m not sure if they’ll work out.

I’m really happy that I’m getting back into these things because they are things that mean a lot to me and that have always been a big part of my life. Thanks for reading and have a great rest if your day or night.

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

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The Blue Sky Tag

4/25/17

Hey guys, welcome back. So we were tagged by the wonderful Aspen from Akatheauthor to do the Blue Sky Tag. Thanks so much Aspen!

Rules:

  1. Thank the person (people) who nominated you.
  2. Answer their 11 questions.
  3. Tag 11 people.
  4. Give them 11 questions to answer.

Questions:

  1. Were you a cute or ugly baby?  I actually think I was a really cute baby. What happened is beyond me, but little me was adorable.
  2. Would you rather live in the times of the Old West, or medieval times? I’m actually going to go with medieval times. I like the idea of the old west but I just don’t know if I’m cut out for that lifestyle.
  3. If you could only have sweatshirts or sweatpants which would you pick? Sweathshirts. If you know me, you know I will never pass up the opportunity to wear a sweatshirt. (I’ve actually never owned a pair of sweatpants)
  4. If you could know 1 thing about the world what would it be? I’d like to know why it’s so hard for everyone to just get along.
  5. Least favorite food? Anything with an excess amount of salt I just cannot deal with. Any food that was good becomes gross the second you add more than a teeny tiny bit of salt.
  6. A song you can’t stand but always sing when it comes on. Chained to The Rythym by Katy Perry. I don’t know why but I can’t stand it. But it’s so darn catchy.
  7. What do you call hair elastics where you live? (i.e. ponytails,etc) I’ve personally always called them hair ties but I’ve heard so many people call them so many different things.
  8. Favorite scent of soap? Anything that has a fresh scent. I’m not a fan of sweet scents so I prefer things like lemon or cucumber.
  9. At the beach would you rather stay playing in the sand or actually swim? I’d rather stay in the sand. The ocean is beautiful, I respect it, but I don’t trust it. The farthest I’ll go in is up to my chest. Any farther than that and I might implode in fear.
  10. If you could move to another country, would you? If so, where? Yeah I think I would make a temporary move to another country. At least for the next 4 years. I thought about Britain but I’m going to pick Canada simply for the similar accent. I do this weird thing where if I spend a lot of time on YouTube or something hearing people speak in a differet accent, I unconciously start to speak in that accent as well. So I feel like I would accidentaly offend some British people if I were to move there.
  11. If you had the ability to teleport to 1 person right now, who would it be? I’d teleport to my baby cousin because I havent seen her since Thanksgiving and I really miss her.

Sorry for the laziness of this but I am trying to write these quickly and I do have some other things to do so I am just going to reuse these questions and I’m tagging anyone who wants to do this.

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

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A Few Quick Updates

4/23/17

Hey guys, welcome back. Forgive me for taking some time off but I’ve really just not been feeling that great lately. I’ve been kind of sick on and off but I am feeling a lot better now and that is good because I have something very exciting and important to tell you.

I got the confirmation letter from my doctor saying that I can return to school on May 1st!

And although I am so happy about that because I am so sick of spending all my time at home, that does unfortunately mean a lack of blog posts

The reason being is that although I’m medically ready to return to school, I’m not completely caught up with my work yet.

So this week I’m really going to be pulling my weight but I right now I’m about to make daily schedules for myself so I can maximize my productivity.

I’m going to be setting aside 2 hours over the next couple of days for me to write some blog posts that I can just have ready to go since I won’t have time to write the first week I go back to school.

And I do promise that Lyss will be returning to the blogosphere shortly but unfortunately on top of all her school work, she has very recently run into a bit of drama which she is now trying to sort out.

Thanks for reading and have a great rest of your day or night.

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

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Something To Think About

4/16/17

Hey guys, welcome back. Happy Easter! I hope you’ve had a lovely day if you celebrate filled with good food and family and love.

I’m feeling quite happy today which is slightly odd because last Easter I spent half the day crying, but let’s not dwell on the past.

Something that’s kind of “hit” me recently is a bit of a strange thought.

The guy that I will eventually marry is out there right now, living a life that I will learn about through stories and pictures one day.

It’s just kind of a strange thing to think about. Everybody is the center of their own universe and people don’t usually think about how the world looks through someone else’s eyes. Or how other people are experiencing their lives and you aren’t a part of it.

You constantly hear the phrase “put yourself in their shoes”, but what if you actually did? Think about it.

Pick somebody. Anyone in your life. Got one? Now imagine a day in their life. Do you have a pretty good idea of what their typical schedule looks like? Now imagine you living that day, but as them.

See what I mean? It’s hard to picture. It’s hard to imagine waking up in a different bed, with a different name, new routine and new people to interact with, etc.

But there are hundreds- even thousands -of people out there that you’ll one day cross paths with. They’re living a life completely without you in it. And one day, you’ll meet. What will it be like when they meet you? How will they see you?

Back to the guy I’ll eventually marry. I can’t help but wonder, do I already know him? Will we go to school together at some point? How will we meet? Is he aware that the girl he’ll marry is out there living her own life without him in it?

I feel like this is one of those 12-3 am thoughts. You know the ones, you can’t sleep, you’re lying awake staring into space and out of nowhere you have all these deep thoughts and realizations about the world and you just kind of go, “Woah, I should go to sleep before this goes any further”

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

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The Why I Love Me Tag

4/13/17 

Hey guys, welcome back. So the wonderful Em tagged us in the Why I Love Me Tag which was created by Thoughtful Tash. You can check out her blog  for more about the tag.

THE RULES (as stated in Tash’s post)

  • Post the award on your blog
  • Acknowledge the blogger who nominated you
  • Leave a link to the original tag creator (ThoughtfulTash) to get a bit more info about WHY this tag has been made!
  • Write 10 things you love about YOURSELF and WHY
  • Nominate at least 5 other bloggers
  • In the comments of the blog post, spread more self-love with compliments to each other! THE MORE LOVE THE BETTER!

1. My Eyes

Okay well I think all eyes are beautiful but if we’re going to talk about me here, I really like my eyes. Not only for their color, (which I do like) but I like them a lot because my Dad and I have the same eyes. I’m totally my Dad’s daughter and it means a lot to have a piece of him with me all the time.

2. I’m Introverted

Most extroverts will make this seem like  bad thing but I really like that I’m an introvert.  Most people are extroverted so being an introvert makes me a bit different.

3. I love books

The majority of people nowadays (how old am I?) read everything online or avoid reading in general. Teens hate books for some reason. But I enjoy nothing more than a rainy afternoon while holding a good book. (Also fun fact I’m currently writing this in a Library)

4. My Personality

Something I have only recently realized is that I actually really like my personality. I always used to wish I was like everyone else. I hated how shy I was, I hated that it took me forever to get to know people because I was always scared of opening up. But now I love that I’m like that. I find that I get involved in less conflicts because I take more time to get to know people, if that makes sense.

5. I enjoy learning

Again something I find isn’t common among most teens today. I enjoy going to school and learning, specifically about history. I like to learn why things are the way they are. I’m always questioning things (not out loud though)

6. I’m good advice

Seriously I could write an advice column. I feel like a lot of people ask me for advice an even if I have little to no experience in the situation, I’m usually able to help the person solve their problem.

7. My ability to read people

This kind of goes with the last one but I’m pretty good at reading people’s emotions and thoughts.  If I know you for long enough I will always be able to tell when you’re lying to me. Even if you’re like Lyss and immediately deny it.

8. I have great friends

Okay I know my last post solely consisted of me complaining about them leaving me out of stuff but overall I think I have a pretty good taste in friends.

9. My dedication

When I start something, there is a 95% chance I will finish it. I don’t like to leave things half-done.

10.  My Creative Writing

(SHHHH we don’t talk about how I haven’t added to The Underground in months) I’m good at telling and creating stories.

The People I’m Tagging

Anonymousblog101

Riya

Autumn

Aspen

Elm

Sorry if you’ve already been tagged. But thanks for reading this, it did take me a couple of days to write. I hope you enjoyed.

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

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Left Out

4/9/17

Hey guys, welcome back. Sorry about my little unannounced break. I’ve really just focused on school work for the last week because I’ve been trying so hard to catch up so I can go back next week.

Anyway, you know how I love my friends. I talk about them all the time and how much they mean to me. But, I have been noticing since around two weeks before my birthday, something that bothers me.

I’ve touched on it before but I just need to talk today. At first I started to feel left out because my friends were all having fun on this app I couldn’t download because it was iPhone only. When I got my iPhone, I got that app, I got Snapchat and Instagram and I thought that now maybe I wouldn’t be left out of things anymore. But I was wrong.

I noticed slowly that three of my friends were hanging out together almost every weekend. It didn’t bother me, I don’t have to be invited to everything.

Then I found out that there were two birthday parties I wasn’t invited to. That stung, a lot. One of them I didn’t even tell anyone other than Lyss I knew about it.

And just today, I saw something on Snapchat. First it was the three friends who are always together on the weekends. They were hanging out and I thought nothing of it. Then I saw that Lyss was with them. I asked where they were.

They’re all at a street fair in a town not far from here. A street fair I’ve always wanted to go to in a town that I absolutely love.

That hurt so much.

All my closest friends are there and nobody invited me. I was just sitting home, by myself

It just makes me wonder what I did. I mean yesterday one of them checked in on me and I told her I hadn’t been feeling too great. Is that it? They thought I was sick? I’m not. And they didn’t even check to see if I was.

Sure now I feel sick but it’s only because I’m hurt. I’m honestly upset with them.

Thanks for the invite guys, I appreciate it.

Maybe it’s cause of the PANS. I told them though that they could keep inviting me places. I told them I needed them now more than ever. I’ve had such an awful week and I so could’ve used a day out with them today. Oh well. I guess I’ll just lay in bed on the nicest day of the year so far.

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

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