Hey guys, welcome back. Sorry about my little unannounced break. I’ve really just focused on school work for the last week because I’ve been trying so hard to catch up so I can go back next week.
Anyway, you know how I love my friends. I talk about them all the time and how much they mean to me. But, I have been noticing since around two weeks before my birthday, something that bothers me.
I’ve touched on it before but I just need to talk today. At first I started to feel left out because my friends were all having fun on this app I couldn’t download because it was iPhone only. When I got my iPhone, I got that app, I got Snapchat and Instagram and I thought that now maybe I wouldn’t be left out of things anymore. But I was wrong.
I noticed slowly that three of my friends were hanging out together almost every weekend. It didn’t bother me, I don’t have to be invited to everything.
Then I found out that there were two birthday parties I wasn’t invited to. That stung, a lot. One of them I didn’t even tell anyone other than Lyss I knew about it.
And just today, I saw something on Snapchat. First it was the three friends who are always together on the weekends. They were hanging out and I thought nothing of it. Then I saw that Lyss was with them. I asked where they were.
They’re all at a street fair in a town not far from here. A street fair I’ve always wanted to go to in a town that I absolutely love.
That hurt so much.
All my closest friends are there and nobody invited me. I was just sitting home, by myself
It just makes me wonder what I did. I mean yesterday one of them checked in on me and I told her I hadn’t been feeling too great. Is that it? They thought I was sick? I’m not. And they didn’t even check to see if I was.
Sure now I feel sick but it’s only because I’m hurt. I’m honestly upset with them.
Thanks for the invite guys, I appreciate it.
Maybe it’s cause of the PANS. I told them though that they could keep inviting me places. I told them I needed them now more than ever. I’ve had such an awful week and I so could’ve used a day out with them today. Oh well. I guess I’ll just lay in bed on the nicest day of the year so far.
See ya soon!!!