4/9/17
Hey guys, welcome back. Sorry about my little unannounced break. I’ve really just focused on school work for the last week because I’ve been trying so hard to catch up so I can go back next week.
Anyway, you know how I love my friends. I talk about them all the time and how much they mean to me. But, I have been noticing since around two weeks before my birthday, something that bothers me.
I’ve touched on it before but I just need to talk today. At first I started to feel left out because my friends were all having fun on this app I couldn’t download because it was iPhone only. When I got my iPhone, I got that app, I got Snapchat and Instagram and I thought that now maybe I wouldn’t be left out of things anymore. But I was wrong.
I noticed slowly that three of my friends were hanging out together almost every weekend. It didn’t bother me, I don’t have to be invited to everything.
Then I found out that there were two birthday parties I wasn’t invited to. That stung, a lot. One of them I didn’t even tell anyone other than Lyss I knew about it.
And just today, I saw something on Snapchat. First it was the three friends who are always together on the weekends. They were hanging out and I thought nothing of it. Then I saw that Lyss was with them. I asked where they were.
They’re all at a street fair in a town not far from here. A street fair I’ve always wanted to go to in a town that I absolutely love.
That hurt so much.
All my closest friends are there and nobody invited me. I was just sitting home, by myself
It just makes me wonder what I did. I mean yesterday one of them checked in on me and I told her I hadn’t been feeling too great. Is that it? They thought I was sick? I’m not. And they didn’t even check to see if I was.
Sure now I feel sick but it’s only because I’m hurt. I’m honestly upset with them.
Thanks for the invite guys, I appreciate it.
Maybe it’s cause of the PANS. I told them though that they could keep inviting me places. I told them I needed them now more than ever. I’ve had such an awful week and I so could’ve used a day out with them today. Oh well. I guess I’ll just lay in bed on the nicest day of the year so far.
See ya soon!!!
-Dani
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LifeOfTeenGirls 
Dani I’m sorry you’re going through this. I know what it feels like to be left out – it’s sort of happening with me and my friends too because since starting college I made a new group of friends so my old group of friends gradually started drifting apart and hanging out with new people. It was alright at first as I had my new friends to hang out with, but last weekend we went out for a meal and one of the boys invited one of their other friends and I’m not great at meeting new people so I was even quieter than usual as it just felt really awkward and then I overheard my friends saying that this new person didn’t like me and thought I was a waste of space which really hurt, and then yesterday I was out with my family and saw my friends had met up without me. It’s just sad when things like this happen, because I’m not sure what I did and I’m sure you haven’t done anything wrong either. Perhaps you could try asking your friends if you could meet up with them or ask why you hadn’t been invited? If you feel comfortable with doing that of course, I understand that it might feel awkward though, I feel awkward about asking my friends why they’ve started meeting up without me but I’m sure they’d understand if they knew how much it was upsetting you, or even just talk to Lyss. I’m really proud of you for keeping up with your studying despite everything you’re going through and I’m always here if you need someone to talk to. Xx
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I totally get how you feel I’ve been left out so much and it really hurts, one day you think you are all great friends and all really close but then you see them all hanging out together and they didn’t invite you so you wonder if you actually were as close as you first thought. Why don’t you talk to them about it, I get it’s scary but it would be worth it if you get a substantial answer. You could try texting them if you feel uncomfortable doing it in real life. If they say something acceptable and not horrible just say ok, next time is it ok if I come? or something but if they say something mean then maybe make new friends, I know it’s hard and scary but sometimes you have to make sacrifices to be happy. I’m here if you need,
Autumn xx
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Aw thanks so much. I actually did talk about it with one of them and there was an explanation behind it. Although it still didn’t make me completely okay with the situation, it seems like they really meant well.
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oh ok I’m glad it’s getting sorted and I hop you are happy 🙂
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