On Turning Sixteen

12/8/18

So, 3 days ago, I turned sixteen. Which is crazy. I remember when the first friends I made on here were sixteen. And now I’m there.

It used to seem so far away, even a week ago, me turning sixteen just seemed distant.

I honestly don’t think I ever fully grasped that I’d grow up. Every birthday is a little shocking to me. I have a tradition where every year I watch the clock turn to the minute I was born and that always solidifies things for me. Watching the number change makes me realize how much I’ve grown.

Recently, I’ve been doing a lot of looking back at old photos. Having my baby cousin run around my grandma’s house the way I used to makes me really nostalgic. And looking through photos, remembering the moment they were taken, remembering myself fix my hair and smile, is kind of crazy.

I went through that phase where I thought teenagers were the coolest people on the planet. So to be a teenager makes my 7 year old self really excited. But it makes present-day me feel really bittersweet inside.

This year, I went to school on my birthday. Which I know a lot of people hate and a lot of students take off to celebrate. But for me, going to school on my birthday made me so happy. I haven’t been in school on my birthday in 2 years. I remember last year I spent the entire day home in my room feeling lonely.

This year, I walked into my homeroom which had been decorated for me by my friends. There were presents waiting for me and a giant card which had been passed around all the homerooms for people to sign. The thought that went into the gifts I received from my friends was astonishing and I almost cried. I am so grateful to be in such a happier, healthier place.

Time really does heal all wounds. If it hasn’t healed, not enough time has passed.

But my birthday also made me feel pretty sad for a number of reasons. There’s quite a few people that I wish I could’ve spent it with but unfortunately, they’re not around anymore. I really wished my grandpa had been sitting at the dinner table telling stories of when he was sixteen and learning to drive.

That’s another thing, I got a freaking learners permit! I can drive a car now. I went for the first time on my birthday and kinda ran over a curb but it was fine. Sitting in the drivers seat, being in control, was mind-blowing. I’ve watched my parents drive for years knowing one day I would and there I was, doing it.

Also, they make it look so easy. Oh my gosh it is not that simple. I’ve never had to focus on so many things at the same time but also not focus too hard because there were other things to focus on.

Turning sixteen has really opened my eyes a bit. I am responsible for myself way more than I ever was. But that also means that I am in control. For the first time in a long time, I feel capable of controlling my life instead of turning to the people around me and trusting them to take the reigns.

I can do this. I can get to the place I want to be in and do the things I want to do. I’m not the same person I was at thirteen who was losing her mind and falling apart at the seams. I am 16, and I’ve got this.

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

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Gray Autumn Days

10/17/18

It’s days like this, the ones where the cold bites a little harder, the wind whips a little harsher, the sky a little less blue and quite a bit more gray. The days without the sun where the once beautifully painted leaves now look dull. The days that drag. The days where the blue jays fly to the trees. These are the days I feel the worst grief.

It’s these days when my eyes, yesterday filled with wonderment, are now on the brink of tears. It’s these days where in every other sentence, my breath catches in my throat and suddenly it’s all too much. It’s these days when it hurts the worst.

When I can no longer feel the presence of those lost beside me, when I look desperately for a cardinal’s red wings to let me know that they’re here. When the lake is colorless and still, a physical representation of my own mind displayed before me, when I can’t take it.

And on the bus ride home the same song plays over and over in my headphones because I can’t be bothered to change it. And in class I snap at people, making things as sarcastic as possible, but annoyed that they can be happy when so many people can no longer share in the joy.

Days like these, cold and gray, make me desperate. And despite never being brought up religious, I have the urge to walk to the closest church. To shuffle down the aisle between rows of empty wooden pews, and collapse in the front of the large room overcome by my sorrow. To ask a God to whom I’ve never before properly prayed to, why he’d take them. Why was their time up? How could he dare take them and leave the rest of us here? Why am I so struck by some of these loses, left in the wake of it all to mourn people I never got to truly know?

Days like this make everything seem so trifle. Why learn about how dense the center of the earth is when we can all be taken from it at any moment? Why should I rotate this triangle 90 degrees if they can no longer even write their own name?

But, nevertheless, I carry on. Holding the grief the best I can, although it’s heavy. I walk through the halls a shell of a person, yet still aware of every last person’s displayed emotion. I get annoyed that the sun dares to shine between the clouds as they roll by, but I still welcome it.

I miss those I’ve lost. I never let them slip my mind. They stay in a place in my heart, never to be forgotten. I keep the memories and smile though I know there will never be any new ones.

This is in memory of them.

-Dani

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How I Get Past Creative Blocks

7/8/17

Hey guys, welcome back. Today, while I was watching some YouTube videos, one of the creators mentioned having a bit of a creative block where they weren’t filming videos because they just couldn’t figure out what they wanted to do. And that gave me the idea to make this post.

I’m quite a creative person and as someone who likes to share my creations with other people through things like blogging, for example. That makes a kind of pressure to keep creating, even if people aren’t demanding that I make new things, I feel as though I should be creating new stories, drawings, posts that make you think, etc. This of course means that sometimes I run out of ideas or I just lose the motivation to create.

So I have compiled a list of things that I do to get past creative blocks.

1. Get Inspiration From Others

There is nothing wrong with taking inspiration from other people. Obviously, don’t copy their idea, but if you read someone elses blog post for example and it just makes you think, “Wow, that was really good. I really want to write something like that.” then that’s fine. I do this a lot, if I ever feel like I have nothing to write about, I read other people’s posts and then eventually I get an idea of my own.

2. Take A Break

If you’ve been staring at your computer screen for an hour trying to write that essay, it’s probably not going to come to you. So, turn the computer off, walk away, and do something else for a while. Give your brain a break for an hour and then come back and try again.

3. Put On Some Background noise

I always have something on in the background when I’m writing blog posts. Sometimes I have music but most times I have a YouTube video on. In fact, I’m watching a video right now as I’m writing this. For whatever reason, it helps. When I’m doing homework I even have something on in the background and it makes it easier for me to focus on the task at hand.

Well that’s it from me today. I hope you enjoyed and if you try any of these out and they help you, let me know. Also feel free to comment any other tips that you may have. Thanks for reading and have a great rest of your day or night.

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

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So done

im so tired I kid you not I woke up at 6:30 to do homework after staying up until 11:30 doing homework and honesty thank god it’s Friday. 

I also had to deal with this crap that this girl (M)was saying she hated this other girl (S)to me. So s asked me does m like her and m said she hates s. So I had to carry that message via text to S. She was freaking out because her only friends just admitted to hating her. So I comforted her and brought her out of her slump and she is moving on. I also agreed to be her friend because she’s actually nice and M is so rude. 

What a day tgif

I also got a final callback for the play.

Yay 

-liss

Sunshine Blogger Award!!!

Hey Guys!!!The Lovely,amazing,wonderful  scoutingtheyearaway nominated dani and I to do the sunshine blogger award. Dani already did her blog but me I’m so slow it’s not even funny.But here’s the rules

Rules:

– Thank the person who nominated you.

– Answer the questions from your nominators.

– Nominate 11 bloggers and set them 11 questions (different to the ones your nominator/s asked you) to answer.
 Let’s get to it!

1. What is your favorite type of music?
 probably Pop,soft, or anything Adele. I love u Adele ❤

2. Favorite place to be in the world? With my family and friends. I love them to death

3. Who is your idol and why? I think it would be Adele. Adele blew out her vocal cords but came back with killer song. ( https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wTAJSuhgZxA )

4. Describe your personality in three words: funny,outgoing, shameless 

5. Best experience of your life so far? Probably seeing YouTube and its wonders. Honestly without YouTube where would I get my entertainment from? Wherever would I watch my videos? And further more reruns of oprah?

6. What is your favorite Christmas or Halloween and why? Christmas all the way sorry Halloween! Christmas gives me a warm fuzzy feeling. Ya know? All the cinnamon everything? Yum!

7. Have you ever been camping,if so did you like it or not?
 Yes I have been camping and yes I loved it! Just being outside in the nature and sleeping under the stars makes me feel so comforted.

8. If you could change one thing in the world what would it be and why?  Probably to get rid of labels. Like to instead of labeling someone as a nerd,gross, or stupid we could just say hmm. I dont know maybe a human? 

9. Are you left or right handed?  I’m a righty but I want to try writing with my left hand as good as I write with my right hand. Mainly so I could be like look at me I’m special 🙂

10. What is your all-time favourite film and why? Probably night of the Museum. I’ve seen all the movies and cried for them and it is just such a good film and I’m so upset how another won’t be coming out. Rip Robin Williams 

11. Do you prefer hot drinks or cold drinks? Cold drinks. They are refreshing and hot drinks make me silly to my stomach.

The next step is to nominate 11 bloggers but I don’t read 11 blogs so I nominate aastrological and anyone else who read this and wants o participate. Your questions:

1. Favorite season?

2.Your personality?

3.I you could sleep under the stars without any disturbance would you?

4.Have you ever regretted anything?If so would you go and change it?

5. What Netflix series are you currently on if you have netflix?

6. Favorite animal and why?

7.Favorite day of the week? 

8.Mommy or daddy’s boy/girl?

9.Do you believe 11:11 works?

10.Favorite clothing items (shirt,pants, Shoes?)

11.If you could be one age forever what age would you be?

That’s it love u guys and I’m so excited for next school quarter on Monday I have art!

-Liss

90 Days started 

OKAY I’M SO SICK AND TIRED OF MY MESS OF A LIFE!

I JUST LOOKED UP SOME BEAUTY GURUS AND I THOUGHT,

“Wow these people have got their lives in order..”

And I realized I wanna strive for a little less mess in my life and a little more good. So today I decided I’m doing the 90 day challenge. And if things get rough I’m not backing down I’m gonna work through it. I went on a jog today and I felt good. So I’m gonna work EXTRA hard for these next 90 days

And I realized that I’m REALLY ANNOYING.(wow really just now?)

So I’m striving to be funny but not over the top annoying in general.

But this blog is about little reminders,

~You are beautiful

~The cells inside your body fight everyday to protect you

~Dogs love you more than themselves

~Someone loves you very much

~Me and dani love you

~You look gorgeous sweetheart!

~You have water,food, and shelter.

~You are your worst critic

~Someone thinks about you before they fall asleep 

~Your laugh is cute

~Smile it looks good on you

~CHRISTMAS EXISTS

~Fight the good fight honey. ❤

I auditioned for the play at my school Monday and I’m so nervous wish me luck!!

-Liss

Goldfish In the morning

i eating some rainbow goldfish and its 8:29 

I am really bored but listening to a good country song that my friend is playing.

 My bus is about to come any second but I just wanted to say u will get a blog today besides this!!

Gtg

-Liss