Gray Autumn Days

10/17/18

It’s days like this, the ones where the cold bites a little harder, the wind whips a little harsher, the sky a little less blue and quite a bit more gray. The days without the sun where the once beautifully painted leaves now look dull. The days that drag. The days where the blue jays fly to the trees. These are the days I feel the worst grief.

It’s these days when my eyes, yesterday filled with wonderment, are now on the brink of tears. It’s these days where in every other sentence, my breath catches in my throat and suddenly it’s all too much. It’s these days when it hurts the worst.

When I can no longer feel the presence of those lost beside me, when I look desperately for a cardinal’s red wings to let me know that they’re here. When the lake is colorless and still, a physical representation of my own mind displayed before me, when I can’t take it.

And on the bus ride home the same song plays over and over in my headphones because I can’t be bothered to change it. And in class I snap at people, making things as sarcastic as possible, but annoyed that they can be happy when so many people can no longer share in the joy.

Days like these, cold and gray, make me desperate. And despite never being brought up religious, I have the urge to walk to the closest church. To shuffle down the aisle between rows of empty wooden pews, and collapse in the front of the large room overcome by my sorrow. To ask a God to whom I’ve never before properly prayed to, why he’d take them. Why was their time up? How could he dare take them and leave the rest of us here? Why am I so struck by some of these loses, left in the wake of it all to mourn people I never got to truly know?

Days like this make everything seem so trifle. Why learn about how dense the center of the earth is when we can all be taken from it at any moment? Why should I rotate this triangle 90 degrees if they can no longer even write their own name?

But, nevertheless, I carry on. Holding the grief the best I can, although it’s heavy. I walk through the halls a shell of a person, yet still aware of every last person’s displayed emotion. I get annoyed that the sun dares to shine between the clouds as they roll by, but I still welcome it.

I miss those I’ve lost. I never let them slip my mind. They stay in a place in my heart, never to be forgotten. I keep the memories and smile though I know there will never be any new ones.

This is in memory of them.

-Dani

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Goodbye 2017

12/31/17

Hey guys, welcome back. Today is New Year’s  and boy what a year it’s been. We thought 2016 was bad, oh my gosh we were not ready. At least for me.

I’ll be dead honest, this year sucked. Bad.

But you guys could probably tell from the extreme lack of posts. So I won’t waste my time talking about how awful my year was. Let’s talk about what 2018 is going to be.

I learned that it’s up to us to make our year the best it can be.

Last year, I left all the work to 2017 to be a good year. Just kind of sat back and let it be whatever it was. I never made any effort to make it good. Now, I don’t know, and to be blunt, I highly doubt that if I had tried any harder that it would’ve been any better. The year just sucked. And maybe it had to. I’ve learned a hell of a lot. Grown so much as a person. I am not the same girl I was when I sat down to recap 2016. That’s for sure.

And so, through a lot of hard work, I am going to make my one and only New Year’s Resolution this:

Make 2018 the best year it can possibly be.

And I hope you can do your best to do the same. You owe it to yourself. As this is my last post of the year and I want to end on a high note, I’ll leave you with a quote that I read just yesterday. A quote that is unbelievably true and for some reason it just really stuck with me.

Tomorrow, is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one. -Brad Paisley

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

(^^)/

How I Get Past Creative Blocks

7/8/17

Hey guys, welcome back. Today, while I was watching some YouTube videos, one of the creators mentioned having a bit of a creative block where they weren’t filming videos because they just couldn’t figure out what they wanted to do. And that gave me the idea to make this post.

I’m quite a creative person and as someone who likes to share my creations with other people through things like blogging, for example. That makes a kind of pressure to keep creating, even if people aren’t demanding that I make new things, I feel as though I should be creating new stories, drawings, posts that make you think, etc. This of course means that sometimes I run out of ideas or I just lose the motivation to create.

So I have compiled a list of things that I do to get past creative blocks.

1. Get Inspiration From Others

There is nothing wrong with taking inspiration from other people. Obviously, don’t copy their idea, but if you read someone elses blog post for example and it just makes you think, “Wow, that was really good. I really want to write something like that.” then that’s fine. I do this a lot, if I ever feel like I have nothing to write about, I read other people’s posts and then eventually I get an idea of my own.

2. Take A Break

If you’ve been staring at your computer screen for an hour trying to write that essay, it’s probably not going to come to you. So, turn the computer off, walk away, and do something else for a while. Give your brain a break for an hour and then come back and try again.

3. Put On Some Background noise

I always have something on in the background when I’m writing blog posts. Sometimes I have music but most times I have a YouTube video on. In fact, I’m watching a video right now as I’m writing this. For whatever reason, it helps. When I’m doing homework I even have something on in the background and it makes it easier for me to focus on the task at hand.

Well that’s it from me today. I hope you enjoyed and if you try any of these out and they help you, let me know. Also feel free to comment any other tips that you may have. Thanks for reading and have a great rest of your day or night.

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

(^^)/

Feeling Better

Hey guys welcome back. So today, I went back to school even though I still wasn’t feeling 100% better. I do feel good about going because my tests were easy and the essay wasn’t too bad. My teacher said that if I didn’t finish she’d work out a way for me to have extra time. So that’s good. Goals for the day:

  1. Exercise (not as much though )
  2. Do some extra reading
  3. Go to bed at a reasonable hour

I am feeling very productive today. I got ready for school and had about 10 minutes to spare. I worked hard in school and did well despite not going yesterday. And I finished my homework already, even the work due Monday. I think that deserves a pat on the back. *pat pat*

I am also in this odd mood where I feel like singing. Since orchestra today, I just want to sing.  I’m pretty sure this is my friends fault because she was making me really jealous with her incredible voice and ever since then I just want to sing.

Also this week flew by. Tomorrow is already somehow Friday. I barley remember going to dance Monday. I went right? Middle school moves much faster then elementary school did. I think it is because in middle school you switch classes, see different people in each class, and in middle school every period has a set end time. In elementary school, it felt like Friday was always so far, but now its the complete opposite.

Anyway I am going to go complete my goals and take care of some other stuff. I hope you somehow enjoyed this very random and all over the place post. Thank you for reading and have a great rest of your day or night.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Dani

(^^)/

Blogmas Day 20!!!!

Whoa 5 more days of blogmas and 7 days until our 6 month anniversary!

I have something special planned for the occasion and I haven’t even told Dani.

So today’s blogmas is a DIY gift for your family.

~Scrapbook

What You will Need-

  •  Scrapbook
  • Pictures
  • scissors
  • rolls of tape

Steps-

  1. First decide who it is for (Family,friends, etc.)
  2. Get pictures of whoever it’s for
  3. Decide the order you will put it in
  4. Before you tape it place the pictures in the order you want them in

I made this gift for my mom and told her it was from a “Close Friend” who told her not to open it until the 25th.

She is so agitated it’s funny

Oh god I love this tie of year

~Liss ❤

One Of Those Days

Hey guys so today i put my interior designing skills to use and decoarted my brother’s room.

I took everything he asked me to do and put posters and little figures in any spaces i could find. I feel so lazy and I need to get on my elliptical and I have not started my homework.

I got gifts for my teachers and I am listening to a awesome song that makes me feel happy!

So I’m having a good day 🙂 So I gotta start my work! AHHHH

But yeah christmas is 5 days away!!!!! I’M SO PUMPED UGH

Okay blogmas a little bit later

~Liss

 

Blogmas day 19!!!!!!!

Hey guys today’s blogmas is about the best Christmas present I’ve ever received!

So The best present would have to be a hoodie i got last year, or the sims 3.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE THE GUY WHO MADE Y HOODIE!

HE IS MY SECRET HUSBAND!!

Okay sorry out of hand

*Ahem*

And the sims is literally the best game I have ever owned.

IT IS SO LIFE LIKE~

So I can make my secret husband in the game.

I just finished up a photobook for my secret santa so i’m content. Alright

~Liss