Gray Autumn Days

10/17/18

It’s days like this, the ones where the cold bites a little harder, the wind whips a little harsher, the sky a little less blue and quite a bit more gray. The days without the sun where the once beautifully painted leaves now look dull. The days that drag. The days where the blue jays fly to the trees. These are the days I feel the worst grief.

It’s these days when my eyes, yesterday filled with wonderment, are now on the brink of tears. It’s these days where in every other sentence, my breath catches in my throat and suddenly it’s all too much. It’s these days when it hurts the worst.

When I can no longer feel the presence of those lost beside me, when I look desperately for a cardinal’s red wings to let me know that they’re here. When the lake is colorless and still, a physical representation of my own mind displayed before me, when I can’t take it.

And on the bus ride home the same song plays over and over in my headphones because I can’t be bothered to change it. And in class I snap at people, making things as sarcastic as possible, but annoyed that they can be happy when so many people can no longer share in the joy.

Days like these, cold and gray, make me desperate. And despite never being brought up religious, I have the urge to walk to the closest church. To shuffle down the aisle between rows of empty wooden pews, and collapse in the front of the large room overcome by my sorrow. To ask a God to whom I’ve never before properly prayed to, why he’d take them. Why was their time up? How could he dare take them and leave the rest of us here? Why am I so struck by some of these loses, left in the wake of it all to mourn people I never got to truly know?

Days like this make everything seem so trifle. Why learn about how dense the center of the earth is when we can all be taken from it at any moment? Why should I rotate this triangle 90 degrees if they can no longer even write their own name?

But, nevertheless, I carry on. Holding the grief the best I can, although it’s heavy. I walk through the halls a shell of a person, yet still aware of every last person’s displayed emotion. I get annoyed that the sun dares to shine between the clouds as they roll by, but I still welcome it.

I miss those I’ve lost. I never let them slip my mind. They stay in a place in my heart, never to be forgotten. I keep the memories and smile though I know there will never be any new ones.

This is in memory of them.

-Dani

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Quotes That Help Get Me Through Bad Days

“Promise me you will always remember: You are braver than you believe, you are stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” -AA Milne

“You’re not as simple as they wanted you to be” -unknown

“Believe you can and you’re halfway there.” -Theodore Roosevelt

“Failure is an event, not a person. Yesterday ended last night” -unknown

“To the world, you may be one person; but to one person, you may be the world” -Michelle Phan

“Don’t believe everything you think” -unknown

“Learn from yesterday, live for today, and hope for tomorrow” -Albert Einstein

“Practice like you’ve never won. Preform like you’ve never lost”-unknown

“If you’re going through hell, keep going.” -Winston Churchill

“She believed she could, so she did.” -unknown

“Never stop being a good person because of bad people.” -Jay Shetty

“You are deserving of the kindness you show others”-unknown

“Whatever you are, be a good one.” -Abraham Lincoln

“You’ve survived 100% of your worst days” -unknown

“It hurt because it mattered” -John Green

“People never forget how you made them feel.” -unknown

Thanks for reading. I hope you found a quote to lift your spirits.

See ya soon!!!

-Dani

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About The Transgender Military Ban…

7/27/17
Hey guys, welcome back! Alright, you’ve already heard the news. Donald Trump banned anyone who is transgender from serving in the military and there is a problem with that. A problem that I can best express in the email that I wrote to the White House in which I voice my opinion. 

Good Evening

My name is Dani ****** and I am a soon to be freshman at ********* ***** High School. I am reaching out to you today because I would like to speak my mind regarding the recent transgender military ban. I was absolutely appalled to see that the leader of our country would commit such an act of discrimination. Even though I’m not transgender, I was deeply offended by the actions of the president. I do not believe it is even remotely acceptable, no matter what gender, race, sexual orientation, or other identity, to prevent people from willingly serving this country. Growing up I was taught that this country was all about “liberty and justice for all” and I’d always believed that. If I’m not mistaken the pledge of allegiance that I recite along with the rest of my class every morning at school does not say “liberty and justice as long as you are a straight, white, cisgender, male”. The recent actions against the entire LGBT+ community are, as I’ve said, unacceptable. This country has it’s issues, but those issues can not, and will not, be solved through discrimination of any kind. Especially when that discrimination is directed at an already extremely vulnerable group of people. I hope you take my opinion and the opinions of countless others into consideration and reassess your recent decision. 
Thank you for your time. 

Now I have to give a huge shoutout to Lyss for inspiring me to take action. She texted me earlier today saying that she wrote to the White House and I decided, “you know what? So will I” 

It’s one thing to say that a decision made in our government was a bad one, but changing that decision is another thing. 

Fellow Americans, it’s time to stop wishing and waiting for change and start making change happen. If we don’t do anything about the issues that effect us, those issues will only grow. 

We are the next generation of politicians. We have to show that we care about what is going on in our country. 

Let’s not forget that the government works for us. In a republic, the people call the shots. We have the power for change. We have the power to make our voices heard. There are ways that you can get involved. 

I will not stand by and watch one person make the rest of the world think that this is how America works. This is not how America is. I have faith that our generation especially will not stand for this. 

I’ve said before that I’m not a proud American. But I only ever said that because I didn’t realize that I had the ability to change that. 

If there are issues you care about, research and find out what you can do about them. 

“Be the change you wish to see in the world.”

**Also as of today our blog is two years old! 🎉🎉Can you believe it? We sure can’t. Thanks for sticking with us and supporting our little blog through all its ups and downs. As always, thanks for reading and have a great rest of your day or night.**

See ya soon!!!

-Dani 

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Feeling Better

Hey guys welcome back. So today, I went back to school even though I still wasn’t feeling 100% better. I do feel good about going because my tests were easy and the essay wasn’t too bad. My teacher said that if I didn’t finish she’d work out a way for me to have extra time. So that’s good. Goals for the day:

  1. Exercise (not as much though )
  2. Do some extra reading
  3. Go to bed at a reasonable hour

I am feeling very productive today. I got ready for school and had about 10 minutes to spare. I worked hard in school and did well despite not going yesterday. And I finished my homework already, even the work due Monday. I think that deserves a pat on the back. *pat pat*

I am also in this odd mood where I feel like singing. Since orchestra today, I just want to sing.  I’m pretty sure this is my friends fault because she was making me really jealous with her incredible voice and ever since then I just want to sing.

Also this week flew by. Tomorrow is already somehow Friday. I barley remember going to dance Monday. I went right? Middle school moves much faster then elementary school did. I think it is because in middle school you switch classes, see different people in each class, and in middle school every period has a set end time. In elementary school, it felt like Friday was always so far, but now its the complete opposite.

Anyway I am going to go complete my goals and take care of some other stuff. I hope you somehow enjoyed this very random and all over the place post. Thank you for reading and have a great rest of your day or night.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Dani

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Blog-Mas!!!!

Hey guys so this is the big moment you’ve been waiting for! Drum roll please!!!!

BUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

IT’S BLOG-MAS!

Now what is blog-mas?

Well blog-mas is like vlog-mas a series of blogs that go up everyday but since me and dani already blog you will get TWO BLOGS! EVERYDAY TO DECEMBER 27th!! OUR 6 month Anniversary!

God I sound like an over attached girlfriend. Anyways I am literally so happy this is happening! I mean i feel so accomplished in life.

This blog is basically just to touch up on what dani said about blog-mas! And, i honestly was so happy when i did the math for our anniversary and found out it was this month! Like December is my favorite alone and this makes it 2x Better!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Okay a little too much sugar today for Liss…

I’m sorry that got way out of control way too fast. But, I am quoting the movie Pixels all day today. My brother watches it over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and so on and so on. So now I can quote half the flipping movie…

Uh huh living the big sister life. But today I worked on my art portfolio more and it has Liss on the front for my name with the L as a Christmas tree, the I as a menorah, the S as a reindeer, and the last S covered in Jewish stars.

Also my drama club just announced the first rehearsal is Thursday. I’m super excited for that too!

That’s all for this blog so Happy December Blog-mas!!!!

See ya Tomorrow

~Liss ❤

Choosing A Good Day

Hey guys welcome back. So today I’m having a really good day. I set plenty of personal goals for the day, here they are:

  • Have homework done and blog up by 5:30
  • Work extra hard in orchestra
  • Stay focused in all my classes
  • Do some reading

I can safely say I have completed 3/4. I’m also having a good day because I chose to have a good day. Many inspirational people say that happiness is a choice and I’ve always believed it, I just thought that it could be a hard choice sometimes.

Today I realized that you really can choose to be happy and have a good day. This morning I woke up and made a mental list of the goals above. I planned how to achieve all of them and remembered them throughout the day.

However, when I got to school, I wasn’t feeling so great anymore. But in my first period health class, we got into a discussion about the importance of maintaining mental health. I decided “You know what, I’m going to make this a good day.” And I did.

So yeah maybe happiness is a hard choice sometimes, but if you try really hard and remain in control of yourself, it won’t be so hard. Thank you for reading and I hope you had a great day as well. 😉

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Dani

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Healthy?

Hey guys welcome back. That is my fourth time writing that today. For you it’s sunday and for me it is Thursday night blah blah blah. But I am typing super fast I just wrote two other blogs and I have to pack and ahhh. Okay I need to go to bed and study and I need a moment. Okay back. Onto the point of today.

So I am not the healthiest of people. This is one of the reasons I started the challenge. I want to be a healthier person. I try my best to eat balanced meals and limit my sugar intake but It isn’t easy. I forget where I heard this but it is not what you eat but how much you eat.

We all try to be healthy but It isn’t as hard as we make it. To prove it you here are three extremely simple tips on how you can be a healthy person.

  1. Be conscious of how much food you put into your body.
  2. Drink plenty of water and get enough sleep. ( these go hand in hand )
  3. Dance around your room. dancing is exercise.

Done boom there you go. Being conscious of what you eat isn’t that difficult you just gotta have some self control. Drinking water and sleeping enough. These go hand in had because you sleep better if you are well hydrated. And dancing is fun and no one is going to judge you in your room so put on your favorite song and throw a solo party.

Okay guys that’s pretty much it. I hope you enjoyed and I will be back tomorrow.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Dani

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