What’s On My Mind

Hey guys welcome back. So today I was in English class and there was a question on the board for us to answer.

The question was:

Do you think it’s brave to deal with things on your own, or does  it take more courage to open up to others.

This kind of hit me hard. I sat there staring at the board for a moment and started to scribble my answer down on my paper. I’m not even sure what I wrote but I turned completely numb. I didn’t feel any emotion for a good 5 minutes.

My class got into this whole discussion about it taking more courage to open up to others. Kids said things like society wants us to believe that we’re stronger for keeping to ourselves but that can make things harder.

I speak from personal experience when I say it takes more courage to open up, but that is one of the hardest things to do. I know it’s bad but I don’t like to go to anyone for help. I just like to deal with it myself. One day about a month ago, I don’t know what happened but I just broke. I was crying and sad but I had no reason to be. It got to the point where my mom took me to a doctor to see if there was something really wrong. According to the doctor I just have social anxiety but i’d be the first to admit that I wasn’t completely honest with my answers to her questions. I know her diagnosis would’ve been different If I changed my answer to some questions.

This all ties into the fact that I have a very hard time opening up to people. But I hope im not the only one like this. and I don’t think I am. I overheard some kids saying similar things but that doesn’t make it any easier. If you struggle with anxiety, like me, I encourage you to remind yourself that it’s all in your head and you’ll be okay. Thanks for reading

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!

-Dani

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Short

I’m in the mood to run but I’m too lazy but I Wil anyways so this will be short.

Today two girls broke into my friends locker those butthole burnouts. I’m getting progress in the bet one of my candidates gave me a high five today so PROGRESS! I have meet the teacher tonight which I’m helping out with and I’m listening to the song renegades which is awesome and that’s pretty much it.

I walked again today with my friends because we were late AGAIN?!

Like hell?

-Liss 🙂

Creative Writings #1

Hey guys welcome back. So I’ve decided that I’d share with you some of the stories I’ve written. Last year, in English class, we did a lot of creative writing. I loved it. So about once a week I will be sharing a story with you. Also this would’ve been up earlier but my bus was late again. We are dismissed at 3:33 and the bus is supposed to come sometime between then and 3:45ish. Today my bus picked us up at 4:00!

WHY YOU DO THIS TO ME?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!

*ahem*

Anyway here we go!

I walk through the woods as the sun begins to set. My mother won’t be back from the fields until after sun-down. My father is out on a hunt. As I make it back to the village I notice my sisters walking hand in hand toward our home. I need to get back before them. Girls in our village aren’t supposed to go into the woods. It is for hunters only. But I cant help it. I love it there. I turn back into the trees and begin to run. Finally I make it back to our home, and just in time too. As I walk in through the curtain and begin to build up the fire, I here my younger sisters voice. She is singing a song that I cant understand. Then realize she has made up her own words to match the tune of a local song.

I go out to meet them as if I’ve been there the whole time. My little sister runs up to hug me, and my older sister just walks into the house without a word. She doesn’t approve of me. I’ve never been quite sure why. My younger sister and I draw pictures in the dirt until our mother returns from the fields. It is early fall and the women of the village began harvesting crops today. My father will be back from his hunt tomorrow and as soon as the harvest is over, we will pack our things and set out on canoe to the neighboring village where our cousins live. My mother walks through the curtain and kisses us all hello. As she begins to make dinner, she asks me to quickly  go into the village to get some herbs from the stand in the center of the village. I walk fast as night falls. But when I arrive something makes me stop in my tracks. a woven basket tossed on the side of the path. It is a beautiful basket and it would be a shame to loose it. I decide to bring it to the stand so someone can claim it.

As I walk to the basket, I see something inside. A young child. There is a small piece of wood next to him that says simply I can no longer be cared for by my family. Please take me back to your home.  I cannot leave the child, so I scoop it up in my arms and carry it home. The herbs are no longer important. My mother will want to help I just know she will. ” Mama.” I call as I reach our home. She comes out and looks at me holding the small child. ” What’s this?” she asks. I explain and she motions me inside. She instructs my older sister to find him some clothing that isn’t ripped like the kind he’s wearing. She tells me to go back and get the basket he was in.  That will have to be where he sleeps.

When I return dinner is ready and my sisters are eating. My mother is holding the child. I sit on my mat and pick up my bowl. The only thing that can stop my mother from caring for this child is my father. I can only hope that when he returns in the morning he will allow us to raise him.  My mother says crops will all be harvested by tomorrow afternoon. There were many women in the fields this year. When girls in our village turn 13 they are expected to help their mother in the fields unless there are younger children in the house to be cared for. Next harvest, I will help my mother. My older sister will have to care for my younger sister. She is only 5 years younger than me. My older sister is 2 years older than me.

Tomorrow will be an eventful day so as the fire begins to die down, we lay on our mats to go to sleep. I stare at the dancing flames and hope I get the chance to go into the woods before we leave for our cousins’. But in their village, girls are allowed in the woods and I will not have to sneak away. The last thing I see before I close my eyes is the basket where the small child sleeps, and I pray silently to the gods that our father will let him stay.

Okay guys that’s it. I will post chapter 2 really soon. The challenge is going great so far. I hope you enjoyed reading this.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Dani

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90 Day Challenge

Hey guys welcome back. So today I decided that i’d tell you a little bit more about the 90 day challenge because yesterday I just told you it was happening. I didn’t go in depth. So lets do that now. Here is what I want to accomplish doing this challenge.

1. Be Healthier

I have realized recently that while I tend to try and balance out my meals and eat healthy, im not the most healthy person. My diet is alright, but im lazy. Exercise isn’t something I do unless im in gym. I’ve tried continuously to exercise regularly but I always give up.

2. Be conscious of my actions

I want to think before I speak and think ahead. I don’t want to regret things. I don’t want to look back on things I’ve done and think I look ridiculous, or that I was stupid for doing what I did.

3. Be more organized

Things get disorganized, it happens. But I want to de-clutter my life a little bit.

4. Work harder at dance

I’ve always been a dancer, and I love it. I’m alright but dance really requires balance, flexibility, and strength. Im very clumsy, not at all flexible, and I’m not THAT strong. There are ways to increase my abilities and I want to do that.

5. Be a better blogger

I’ve never liked being late. For anything. I find it embarrassing. The blog is supposed to be fun. I shouldn’t have to stress because I missed one or I was late. I want this to go up on time. I want to write better blogs. I have plenty of ideas that I haven’t written about yet and I hope they’re interesting.

Okay guys that’s it. It feels so good to be starting this and I look forward to updating you on how the challenge goes.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Dani

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Walk

just got home… Yep 4:00

We had sub driver and he was twenty minutes late. By the time we’re rounding the first stop its 3:58 we are dismissed at 3:33 and my bus is always late as is. I go to my friends Jessica and lauren.

“You two can stay here but next stop I’m going.”

They both agreed to come with me and we walked to our houses.

The bus still hasn’t passed my house. It’s 4:30!

Anyways I’ve advanced in the bet. I have another candidate that I still haven’t told dani.

Here’s how I picked him as my new candidate.

I was walking into lunch and I am on the line when the guy in front of me I recognize. He was in my classes last year.

He turned around and we started talking he said he he this one teacher that I didn’t know so I pretended she was awful. We said goodbye then when I was walking to my bus when i see him and he stops me and we just had an assembly where they passed out packets and he goes,

“Hey Alyssa you know that packet they gave us?”

“Yes..?”

“I already lost it.”

And we went on for a little while then my bus decided to be late. Ugh school is too hard these days.

-Liss 🙂

Dani is right

dani is right most definitely 

This blogs stats have dropped dramatically in the last week, which means me and dani are going to be putting our best out for you.

Forget homework I’m gonna get home and blog.

No more if I miss one day.

No more 10:35 blogs

No more stressing over missing a blog.

I’m gonna make improvements with the blog. And I’m sure dani will work hard towards this as well.

I just want to make improvements with this blog,with me, with my life.

And I’m working towards that.

I’m gonna blog earlier, blog better,and etcetera.

It’s time to start working. 

90 days lets make improvements 

-Liss 😉 

Let’s Try Something A Little Crazy

Okay. This is late. Im no longer alright with that. Our views haven’t been as high lately and I feel like im not doing my best. I want this blog to be one of my top priorities. I should be putting as much time and effort into this as I do my schoolwork.

I want to work on some things. Some big some small. But I want to make a change in my life. Its not that im unhappy its just that there are some things that need improvement.

I’ve seen a couple YouTubers doing this like fouseytube and pointlessblog and im going to try it.

So, for the next 90 days, I will be making all the changes I’ve wanted to make for a long time.

I want to be the best version of me possible. And that all starts here.

Starting tomorrow, I’m going to come home and blog. No more putting it off. Im going to do my homework early. I’m going to make healthier choices.

The time for improvement is now. I shouldn’t have to wait until the new year to decide I want to make a change. I want to be self-motivated and strive to do my best. It wont be easy and I know some days I will want to give up, but im determined to stick to it this time. I WANT TO IMPROVE!

Im going to do it.

No more  “I wish”.

I want to make the changes ive always wanted to. And I intend on doing so.

I’ll keep you updated on how things are going and you can expect a blog tomorrow on time.

(and then she woke up and decided “eh forget it”. JK I hope not)

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Dani

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SOCCER AYEEEE

hey just came back from softball where I hit two balls into the outfield (proud) and I need to tell you story of my soccer game

I was driving with my friend and as we are pulling into the field something catches my eye.

Th annoying boy who asked me out

DUN DUN DUNNNNNNNN

I thought I was going blind so i turn to my friend and go.

“Is that him?!”

She goes,”omg yes!”

And I was dying inside like oh lordie kill me now please.

So half time is called and I get a Drink then back in the game. I was sitting out then I hear the coach on the field next to ours scream the kid who asked me out’s name and I am just sitting there like,

“The freaking odds.”

Before he comes out I slightly look over me shoulder to watch their game for a second and he looks over and tries to do something fancy to impress me by kicking the ball up hitting it with his head then running into it but it backfired.

He kicked it up and when it hit the ground the other team took it and he ran into another player. And he’s not so light so he crushed the boy. I laughed so hard to myself I thought I was gonna pee.

Then as we were going back into her car was running I look back see him and go

“Run this kid over.”

My friends dad looks at me and goes 

“He looks like a dweeb.”

“It’s a necessity.”

“Okay.”

As we were driving he goes

 “you don’t like that kid?”

I was like

 “nope.”

And he said 

“just smile and wave.”

And my last words to him before the whole family broke out in laughter was,

“He might ask me out again.”

Old people humor. Anyways that’s it!

-Liss 🙂

Grandparents

Hey guys welcome back. Im fully aware that this is late. Im sorry. But today I wanted to talk about grandparents. I love my grandmother don’t get me wrong, she is the only grandparent I have after all. But sometimes she does get on my nerves.

For example, today we were in the car and she was driving me to a friends house. She asked me how Spanish class was going. I said it was good and it was easy so far. She told me about when she took Spanish and that was the end of that. On the way home however, she once again asked how Spanish class was going. I don’t know, I guess memory fades with age but it just bothered me.

She also tends to overanalyze just about everything. As we were leaving to go to my friends house she said I “didn’t seem anxious to go”. As in I didn’t seem too excited. Its not that I didn’t want to go its that I knew what I was in for. It was literally going to be me and some friends eating chips and watching a movie. Then she started asking all these questions like, well is she a nice girl, do you know her well, have you been there before, etc. I just got frustrated because I didn’t feel like answering a ton of questions.

My grandmother also thinks that there’s always something wrong. I was once sitting in her living room with my feet up and she said, “Your left foot looks a bit swollen. Maybe you should ice it.”

????

I don’t know why I get so frustrated though. I know his whole thing seems to be me complaining about my grandmother but it just bothers me sometimes. You get annoyed with parents and siblings too. I just tend to get annoyed with people in general. Anyway thanks for listening to my little rant and I promise I love my grandmother a lot.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Dani

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Types Of People At School

Hey guys welcome back. Im so sorry for not posting yesterday I was out with my mom and friends all night and I came home and just went to bed. I was so tired. But anyway I decided id tell you about some of the people I’ve met at school. Let’s go.

  1. The popular kids. These are the kids that everyone knows. They tend to look down on people who aren’t part of their group and most of them are not good people.
  2. The “younger” ones. These are the kids who just weren’t ready for middle school. They do not seem like 12 going on 13 year olds. You cant help but wonder where they went to school before middle school because they’ve never be exposed to anything.
  3. The “pretty” girls. These are the girls who come into school with a cute new outfit everyday. You will never find them wearing a t-shirt and jeans. EVER.
  4. The smart ones. These are the kids who always make you feel dumb. It’s mostly unintentional but they are constantly spouting out random facts and math equations that make you question yourself.
  5. The annoying ones. These are the kids who are kind of your friends but they can’t tell when enough is enough.  They constantly talk to you in class,tap your shoulder, pass you notes, etc.

Okay guys that’s it. I just thought I should mention some others that are kind of self explanatory. The kids who walk too slow, the one who taps on their desk, the socially awkward ones (me), that one couple who everyone cant stand, and finally, you and your awesome group of friends who always have your back. Thanks for reading and i will post another blog late to make up for yesterday.

See ya soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Dani

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